We got word on Friday evening that our apartment (just built) is finally ready! We’ve been living in my sister and brother-in-laws basement for 5 months, waiting for this very day. It’s big new’s and we are ready to take this new journey in life.
We sold our home 5 months ago to get out of debt. We were able to pay off over $30,000 dollars by selling a dearly loved home.
I remember questioning God. This home has been such a blessing to us. It was our first home purchase and we worked hard to get it.
In tears, I kept asking God if this was really what he wanted us to do. He spoke to my heart saying “this house has been a blessing to you up until this point. But, if you continue to hold on to it, it will become a hindrance.”
This made perfect sense. The debt we were under was suffocating us. My husband was working long days and insane hours to keep up with it all. It was beginning to break us. God, with all His love and mercy, was offering us a way out.
Making the leap
We jumped. I wish I could say I took it without hesitation and with absolute trust, but that’s not true. I don’t know how many times I came to God asking the same question… “Are we really suppose to do this, Lord?”
I even asked my Husband… “Are you sure?”
In my heart I knew it was the right decision. I knew no matter where we ended up God would be leading and guiding us. Still, I am always the girl with the plan. And the only plan in place was to sell the house. The options after it sold were…
- Bye a new house? Probably not in this high market.
- Rent a house? That is a probability.
- Rent an apartment? PLEASE Lord no!
Why then, Lesly, are you moving to an apartment?
That is a great question.
I remember praying sometime ago, must have been at the beginning of all this, “if you want me to live in an apartment Lord, than I will trust that is just where you want us to be. That your purpose and blessing will be wrapped in it.”
Funny how God can lay things on our hearts to pray over without us knowing exactly what we are praying over.
So the next question you might be wondering is WHY I don’t want to move to an apartment…
We were home owners just a few short months ago. We had a giant back yard for the boys to play in, to run in, jump and swing in. I had a beautiful little garden and the neighborhood was beautiful. We were use to more space than an apartment can give, but those are the material reasons.
The real reason
It almost feels like a step backward. My husband and I started out in an apartment when we first got married. It was perfect for two people just starting out, but a family? That is simply not where I saw our future.
Its humbling to go from home owner to apartment dwellers once again.
He reminded me of yet another prayer I prayed (many times over after hearing a small sermon) years ago.
I prayed for restoration.
“Lord restore us, our marriage, our finances.” I did this often.
I believe this apartment is God restoring us. We have a chance to start again. Only this time, we are smarter, stronger, wiser and genuinely more focused on HIS plan for our lives.
He supplied us with a house once, He can do it again. He has seen to our every need, proving that I can trust the path He is asking us to walk down.
As we move into our new space, I furnish it with new thing’s. Away with the thing’s of old. I want reminders in place of where we have been and where we are going.
We will remember what God has walked us through. How He stepped into the boat we were drowning in, and saved us. He brought our marriage back to life and our children, our sweet children…. He reminded us that life is to short to be focused on anything more than a relationship with them.
That is one of the reasons we decided not to rent a house. We would be spending our time and money to care for something that was not ours and it would be a form of distraction from pouring out that care on love on our family.
We want to take this time of apartment living, to pour love over our family. To spend more time with each other and go on more sporadic outings. THAT is something I am really looking forward too.
I am excited to see where God lead’s us. And as always, I pray for the strength to take those big leaps knowing He will catch us. Knowing He is good. Knowing He work’s all things together for the good of those who love Him.
And I do love Him. My future is bright in His hands. If an apartment is where He want’s us, I rest assured there will be opportunity and blessing there.