Things are shifting. The safety and security that I once enjoyed, gone, just like that. Fear and doubt have begun to erupt in my mind. Something inside me is looking for a glimmer of hope – a silver lining – and I see it. In the mix of this mess good could happen! Now I’m faced with a choice… will I be Negative Nancy, or Lighten up Lesly?
Lighten up Lesly
Let me explain. On my coaching call the other day I told my coach I didn’t want to see the negative in situations anymore. I was sick of heaviness of those dark thoughts, the fear and the ‘what if’s’ that followed. The despair, the long dark nights… the body shaking tears…
My husband and I have walked through an incredible number of storms and I told her “I’m not going back to those dark places.”
Her response was perfect! “Okay, so Negative Nancy is dead. You buried her. Now… who will you become?”
I thought about it for a second and… lighten up Lesly came to mind! I take things far to seriously most the time anyway. It’s time to light up an live! (BTW love that portion on Christian radio from Ken Davis 😉 )
I’m guessing others have experienced the loneliness of the deep dark? The hole you feel you’ll never climb out of?
It’s a terrible place that fear takes us, what a blessing that we don’t have to go where fear leads.
Our family is once again facing circumstances that are not what we envisioned for our life. Thing’s we thought we were done with have sneaked up to try and plague our future. Only this time around I will not allow the negative – fear filled thoughts – to cloud the goodness and joy wrapped in this seemingly uncomfortable situation.
Instead of envisioning all the work and stress that could be involved, I choose to see the freedom and blessing this shift could provide. Sure, it will be more work. Sure, it will get messy and uncomfortable. No, I don’t know what the future holds, but beautiful change rarely comes without a little hard work.
Roll up your sleeves
Blazing a new path holds uncertainty, but I choose for this to be good. I choose. The situation doesn’t get to choose. The circumstances don’t get to choose… no one gets to choose but me.
This shift could be a slingshot into all thing’s good. I believe it is yet another opportunity for growth. And with growth comes success!
There is no growth in the comfort of normal. Where is the opportunity in ‘same old, same old?’
I’ve prayed for growth. I’ve prayed for a way out of debt and a life that is free from the chains of obligation.
Have I prayed for this shift?
Yes, we (my husband and I) have..
You can’t just ask for change in my experience. You have to be ready to meet God and do the work.
In praying over growth, I have to surrender my future plans into the hands of the Creator. I’ve asked for this and I trust that He is leading us down a path to prosperity.
For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not calamity to give you hope and a future. – Jeremiah 29:11
She is clothes with strength and dignity, she laughs without fear of the future…. Proverbs 31:25
Focusing on what new doors and opportunities this could offer our family (like getting out of debt) are huge! If I allow myself to dream and reach for the opportunity.
With our future in the hands of someone who loves us and wants the best for us I trust that good will flow. Will it be easy? It never is. Perhaps the question we should ask is, will it be worth it?
He offers us all a choice. To jump, or not to jump. God is the perfect gentleman. He will not force your hand. You can stay in your situation or you can trust in His immeasurable love and take the leap of faith. It’s a wild ride my friends but I can say from personal experience… it’s always been worth it.
Before I know it – I am thanking God for the lessons learned and the growth that has strengthened our family in so many life changing ways.
Are you willing to put forth an effort? Are you willing to experience change in order to grow? Are you willing to experience a curtain discomfort?
Will there come a day when I fall back on my negativity and start asking they WHY question? I am sure there will be. When faced with uncomfortable or unknown circumstances we get worn down and we begin to question things… But I am Lighten Up Lesly now, I’ll seek out the good 😉
Take the leap. Make the mistake. God will catch us when we fall. There are gifts and blessings along the way if we choose to open our eyes and see them. He is good. He can be trusted. He is consistent. He is always working for our good. This I know. I don’t trust in myself. I trust in His ability. So take a deep breath, Say a prayer, and leap!