Maybe you’re kinda like me when a difficult circumstance stares you in the face. Instead of mustering all the faith and hope to face it, you collapse and ask, “God, what are you doing?”
I’d like to say my first response is “Gods’ got this.” But often times that is my second, third… sometimes even my last response.
After I breakdown I am often embarrassed that, once again, I fell flat on my face. I questioned God, I let my faith falter and asked the “why” question.
Knowing full well He could fix the situation and make it all go away, but He didn’t. It feels like He didn’t show up.
Have you ever felt that way? If you have, you my friend, are in good company.
Playing the Victim
After dealing with the situation and peeling myself up off the floor, my sweet mother gave me a call knowing I could use a little encouragement. Yes, I still call my mama!
She suggested I listen to a podcast (LOVE me a good podcast BTW) by a woman she was following.
She said it reminded her of what I was going through and thought, maybe, it could offer some encouragement.
“Okay,” I said, “but what’s it all about?”
“Well, I don’t want to give it away (thanks mom)… but it’s about a woman who was facing some hard life situations and how, instead of playing to victim, she pressed on to be an inspirational woman despite her debilitating health issues.”
Excuse me… VICTIM?
I’ll be honest. When my mom said “victim” a hot flair of anger shot down my spine, followed by a shot of guilt.
My mom was in no way saying I was playing the victim. Her suggestion was that I somehow make something good out of this.
But the word stuck with me all. day. long.
“I am NOT playing the victim! This is some hard stuff I’m dealing with here.”
Than I thought about how I felt when she said it, the anger, the guilt… Gosh darn it!
Truth be told
I was indeed playing the victim card, and it was a hard pill to swallow.
Poor me was what I was saying. Why me. This isn’t fair… on and on the self pity party went.
It was a hard a realization, but it got my attention.
What I was doing was putting myself in a box, closing the lid, asking someone to tape it up and ship me off to the land of broken dreams. The land where nothing thrives and “I can’t” is spoken over and over and over again.
Ever been there? It’s a dark desolate place.
I was letting my circumstances depict my future. I don’t know about you but, I don’t want my circumstance to have that kind of control over my life.
I am in control of the way I feel and I want JOY! PEACE! and HOPE!
All of which are found in GOD. The One I was questioning. The One I felt had failed me. The One I say I trust.
I had to pull myself up (because only I can) and ask GOD for forgiveness.
As I arose the next morning there was a worship song in my heart.
His mercies are new every morning. Great is thy faithfulness oh GOD, great is thy faithfulness.
There He was, asking me to let yesterday’s issues be yesterdays. Giving me the freedom to embrace a new day and I took hold of that fresh start. I chose JOY, a decision I never regret.
Why does God allow us to face hard circumstances?
I believe it is to grow us and to lead us into a deeper relationship with Him. When things begin to get to heavy to hold I am reminded of this verse…
For my yoke is easy and my burden is light. – Matthew 11:30
And this one…
Cast all your anxiety upon Him, for He cares for you. – 1 Peter 5:7
We are not meant to do this alone nor are we suppose to carry all the burdens. God is right beside us, He is standing in the mess with us asking you and me to trust Him.
He is for us, not against us.
What kind of KING would stand with you in your mess? One that loves you, is devoted to you, who want’s to see you succeed, who wants to give you peace and joy. If only we could surrender fully to Him our everything, He will pick up the broken pieces, He will make us whole again.
Life giving facts
Whatever we face (and I know we are all facing a lot) God is with us. We might not see or understand His reasons. However, I can look back to a time I asked God what He was doing and see now exactly why He orchestrated thing’s the way He did. There are some instances I still don’t fully understand but I know, after all He has done, I can trust Him.
Some other fact’s I believe:
- Where you are at, is where GOD wants you to be.
- When we fall as followers of GOD, we fall forward.
- God can part they waters – He can do the impossible.
- Trial and temptation lead us into a deeper more meaningful relationship with Christ.
- The calling of God is a process. It will have it’s ups and downs.
Last but not least…
- God is faithful, and we can trust Him.
I don’t know what you face sweet friend, but I know GOD is good. And He is good at being GOD. He designed this world for us. The beautiful landscapes, the tree’s and the beasts of the field – all, for us. Because He loves us. So I surrender everything to Him once again (and again, and again and again if necessary), to continue on this journey of life knowing… GOD’s really got this!